Last year, I didn't end up doing FAWM at all. I recorded a lot of little demos, some of which still seem to have potential, but none of which ever actually amounted to anything. Eventually I just admitted defeat and gave up entirely. Of course, I'm only a day into it this time, but it's hard not to feel like I'm heading down the same rout. The only thing I've done so far is a really horrible tossed off chord progression with a super predictable and repetitive melody over it. Why would I want to do anything with that?

How can I not suck at music? What is the key? I don't always suck at music. Do I?

And lyrics, don't even get me started on lyrics. It seems like the problem with lyrics is just symptomatic of a bigger issue with life in general. In order to really write lyrics, something has to put fire in you to do such. My life is pretty much the opposite of fiery. All the conflicts in my life have the volume turned down to a dull whisper. That isn't to say they don't exist, but it's inordinately hard for me to really give a shit about anything enough to write about it.

Another problem is that I'm too smart to like the bad lyrics I come up with. Even in my current batch of Wood Burning Cat songs, there are lyrics that make me cringe. I have some that don't even make sense. Why would I want to write lyrics that I don't think are smart?

That's the rant for now. Hopefully I'll get over myself and work on something else later, but I think today has been a bust.